INTERVENTION!!

Well-- the past day and a half have been a whirlwind involving two lectures on confidence.

The first was last night, on the phone with my dear J. He was telling me I need to work on my confidence, because I always worry about things.. like:
- losing him
- failing
- forgetting things
- the way I look
- the way I act/talk
- the clothes I wear

It was all with good intentions. I promise.

Tonight, I took Sarah out to celebrate her birthday (which is in a few days). She gave me a confidence intervention. The past few days I have been over stressing about EVERYTHING. Nothing has been going my way... but today things turned up.

1. My American Lit Paper-- I'm pretty sure it sucked, but the girl who reviewed it said it was fine. I thought I was going to have to re-do the whole paper and turn in a final draft on Thursday.. But I realized it wasn't due until May 7.

2. My Storytelling Project Narrative-- Because our last two interviews were cancelled, I felt like my work was incomplete and didn't quite give my partner the quality story he deserved. My professor told me she thought it was powerful and that she loved it.

3. My relationship-- Long distance is messing with my head. I keep getting afraid that J will fall madly in love some other person while I'm far away. I know how stupid that is. I love him. He loves me. We are perfectly fine, and I'm just crazy.

Everything. It's far beyond just those three, but those three have been really overwhelming.


So, I need to work on that. The whole, believing in myself and trusting myself.

Always,
H.Eilene