My Apologies

Everything has changed so fast. I'm in one of those horrible movies where they show time passing with some stupid montage. Except, I'm just me. Life is moving so quickly, and I don't know where to breathe.

But, that's okay.

This train can keep speeding through, and eventually I'll figure it all out.

This isn't going to be a long message, but here it is.

I am so very sorry if I am neglecting my friendship with you. I am so very sorry if my schedule is screwing things up between us. I haven't figured out my time management system yet with this new job and the new hours, so I don't have as much time as I would hope to have. This means that instead of devoting my time to other people, I'm devoting time to myself right now. I need to figure some things out before I can allow myself to be there for others.

I have given up too much of myself in the past two months, and my grades and my heart have suffered. Please, don't take it personally. I am not cherry picking who I'm talking to and who I'm not.

During this time of adjustment and thinking, I'm also trying to revamp my relationship with Jesus. I feel like since I moved to the U, He has been moved aside for other things. God is very important in my life, and I need to give myself a chance to really reflect and pray to Him, and I need to devote the time He deserves. So, I'm working on it.

Maybe you're sick of hearing that I'm working on it, but honestly, that's all I've got. Give me some space, and I swear to you that when I'm ready I will come talk to you.

Always,
H.Eilene