Embracing my Faith

So, I'm taking a break. 

It might make me a bad friend, but I'm trying to make good use of this time and actually get my act together.. which will hopefully help me to be a better friend in the greater scheme of things. 

So far, I've realized how much I really truly love my relationship with God. I appreciate Him so much more now. I'm realizing how truly special He is. How rare is it that you can find someone who will love you EXACTLY as you are?

Even my closest friends and family will tell me:

You're too sensitive
You're too anxious
You care too much about what others will think
You are too judgemental
You're too passive
You're too bitchy
You're too quiet
You need to do this
You need to be more that

But... God doesn't tell me to change. He loves me as I am.  

I need more people in my life who will love me just as I am. I need more people who will love me even when I'm struggling with my anxiety or overly-emotional about something. I need more people who will choose to stand by me through thick and thin. 

I'm also, attempting, to live a more Christ-like life. I'm trying to make each decision in a way that more positively reflects my religion and each step I take is a step towards Heaven-- in a non-depressing we're all slowly dying kind of way-- and a step towards a happier and healthier life. 

Always,
H.Eilene